Pretty unreal

There is something wrong with the cost of healthcare in our country.  I don't have a lot of things wrong with me but the check in engine lot pops on occasionally.  For those who don't know, I suffer from manic depressive disorder and I've been on various forms of medication since approximately 2008.  Medications only work until they don't.  For three years I've been on something called Caplyta.  On 42 mg for the long time and most recently downgraded dose to 10.5 mg once a day.  Reason for reduction was jaw clenching that lead to cracking a tooth.  

Originally my doctor told me the medication was expensive and that there was no generic equivalent.  She completed the necessary paperwork facilitating my health insurance provider to cover the cost minus the generic drug copay as it was medically necessary.  

Last week, I went to the pharmacist for a refill and the insurance supplement had expired.  Notified at time of pick up the retail cost for 30 doses was $2014.00.  And there was a discount of $1400.00 making my out of pocket expense $614.00 dollar.  Returned to the pharmacy and presented a discount card from the manufacturer.  After they spent 30 minutes inputing various information was notified the out of pocket cost was zero.  Struggle to understand how a capsule containing 10.5 milligrams of medication can cost 67 dollars.  A gram of Caplyta would be approximately $6,700.00.  Street prices for a gram of cocaine is $200.00 dollars.  

I wasn't taking any of the prescribed medicine in December/January.  Resumed in February due to not feeling normal.  Pleased with being clean for two months.  Don't know how feasible it is to be completely going forward.  Unsure what changes I could make to end taking of the drugs.  Will again ask the doctor at next appointment.

Do I avoid certain stimulus.  Do I withdraw from certain situations?  Do I accept my unmedicated self as I am?  Am I broken?  Defective?  Something else?  Is my brilliance being medicated away?