Mf government

Making it okay for oil refineries to produce E15 gas under the guise of reducing pricing spikes? The government has just legislated the legal destruction of the internal combustion engine by producing gas that ruins it. Think of it as BH Obamas cash for klunkers program that resulted in the government sponsored mass scale destruction of reliable cars in favor of new, inferior engine technology that is documented as being more complex, more expensive and less reliable over the long haul than the engines they replaced. Not one single citizen voted for this. The administration just does this  Lee Zeldin in an asshole.  A wolf in sheep’s clothing  

These pieces of shit are actively destroying transportation needed in society.  Communists bastards  

 The government destroys everything they touch. Bureaucrats should be destroyed.

 Fuck the government, the enviroterrorists and the EPA.  Burn it to the ground. 

Alzheimer’s reduction

They say doubling up on the recommended dosage of flu vaccine might reduce chances of getting Alzheimer’s by up to 50%. What other kinds of nonsense are being used to get people to take more vaccine injections? There’s also a chance taking a double dose of flu vaccine has no effect on the chances of getting Alzheimer’s.

Zooran

Zooran implements unpopular destructive policies with a smile on his face and a tone of optimism in his voice. Reminds me of BH Obama. Both dogs are dangerous.

Jihad. Caliphate. Allahu akbar. Taqiyya.

These are not words of people wanting to integrate. They are words of people wanting to deceive , conquer and dominate. Ladies - Grab your burka and wear a chastity belt to keep these monsters from mutilating women. What looks peaceful on the surface is barbaric compliance and a will to patiently play a chess game meant for eventual Islamic domination through any means possible. How else do you explain 80% reliance on government assistance, the building of numerous mosques, the building of Muslim exclusive communities, the infiltration into the higher levels of government and a calling for prayer being broadcast on systems meant for use during natural disasters? How else do you explain a group of people refusing to assimilate in a new country while clinging to the ways of the world they left? En mass these people turn everything they touch into a backwards third world shithole. They do not believe in equal rights. They fundamentally believe in an outdated caste system driven by male dominance of their own kind. They are animals.

One thing

One thing my dad either never learned or forgot is sometimes you just have to check the box and get it done. There are tasks that don’t need perfection and a due date met.  You just get it done and forget about it.

Case in point. He was to change the transfer amount from the trust to his checking account back in January.   Earlier today he told me his was still working on it. For three months to click a few buttons on his computer.  Then he said he wanted to make it cumulative since January so no one knows he waited.  

Like wth?  Like he’s gonna get in trouble?  Then I explained to him that it was never about dollars and the change was to keep his primary account balance stable.  Oh?  No joke.   Then he did it in 15 minutes.  

He suffers from a perfection complex.  Like he has to prove he’s still got it.  On his A game.  The perfectionist.  Like shit man, you don’t have anything to prove.  You’re an 83 year old man living with Parkinson’s for 12–15 years. His brain has been affected by the disease and the drugs used to manage it. 

Abraham Lincoln said you can’t believe everything you read on the internet. At the same time a response pulled together by the googler indicates he is experiencing cognitive decline; exhibiting 8 out of 9 symptoms, in Cognitive decline in Parkinson’s disease often looks different from what people expect. It’s usually less about forgetting names at first and more about changes in thinking, behavior, and social awareness.

When it progresses to Parkinson’s disease dementia, the symptoms become more noticeable and start affecting daily life. to decline in executive functioning.   

“Cognitive decline in Parkinson’s disease often looks different from what people expect. It’s usually less about forgetting names at first and more about changes in thinking, behavior, and social awareness.

When it progresses to Parkinson’s disease dementia, the symptoms become more noticeable and start affecting daily life.” - The googler  

Do all elderly people exhibit some form of dementia and cognitive decline?  Or do they just not care anymore and they’re tired of conforming to societal norms and standards?  Are they still capable and choose not to?  Or is their mind blown and they just can’t do it anymore?

Hear him roar

Was tiger woods always a drug addict or did he become one over time? Addicted to fame, the game and sex. Then his body got all torn up due to abuse and multiple surgeries. He’s been in multiple car accidents found in an inebriated state.

Caregiving

 I realized I have been a caregiver to my parents in one form or another since my dad got parkinsons.  That's longer than a decade.  A time that started out relatively uncertain with his diagnosis and watching both of them decline to my mom's death last year and my dad's continued decline.  It started out with check ins.  And progressed to supporting their decisions and taking them to medical appointments and being a sounding board as their capability declined.  To the point they weren't eating properly and were malnourished.  They couldn't live in their house because they were hoarders.  I moved them to an assisted living community.  Then to memory care.  Then to another assisted living room in the same facility.  After my mom died, my dad pursued radical treatment for parkinsons and had to move him to a skilled nursing facility or a private care home.  And now I am dealing with his decline on multiple fronts, managing his medical care, trying to manage his psychological care and managing the relationships be continually manages to strain every other week.  And I realize he is a challenging and complicated individual.  I've gone from including him in discussions about his finances and medical care to worker around him and providing him with a summary.  I've watched him mentally decline whether he admits it or not.  And now I deal with a guy who thinks he has something to prove he's still got it when he clearly doesn't.  It's exhausting and it feels like it will not end any time soon.  The situation will not improve.  It will get worse as his decline continues, parkinsons marches on and I'm left to hold his life together. While holding their lives together as best I can - I've damaged my own life. My own psychology, my career, my well being and the relationships with my immediate family.  Because I'm worn down.  Tired.  Burned out.  And just don't care anymore.  

The bottom was leaving my career before being unable to adequately perform.  Things have gotten better as I've made decisions to work on myself and take control of things I am able that don't relate to caring for my Dad.  But he is always needing something and can't say I could have held on to my job.  I can say that the auto parts store would not have put up with the last 3 weeks of responsibilities that have popped up tending to his medical appointments, procedures and breakdowns in the institutions that are needed to get him what he needs.  Sometimes the best run medical practices go through personnel transitions and cases fall through the cracks.  Thankfully the neurology office is a football field away from my house.  They may not answer the phone or return telephone calls, but being able to "pop in" to see them in person for resolution has been the only way to get this train wreck back on track...

I was perusing the facebook and a guy named Neal K Shah found his way to my feed.  He describes himself as America's chief elder officer and CEO of careyaya.  I watched a few of his videos.  The hit my right between the eyes and the center of the heart.  Caregiving is hard.  It sucks.  It is documented to re-wire the caregiver, evolve (strain and damage) relationships in unforeseen ways, sucks the life completely out of the one providing the care.

I don't know what I'm complaining about because I'm not as far in as other people.  At least my father invested and saved to fund this stage of both my mom's life and his own.  I can't imagine the strain other people are under where a declining parent moves in or doesn't have the financial resources to partially shift the burden to professionals. 

I'm pleased with the relationship my sister and I have cultivated over the last few years.  While she is not in the thick of caregiving for my mom or dad, she has been through the wringer with her own husband's demise after an auto tragedy.  She has been instrumental in giving me a space to bitch and moan about the situation and we've had quite a few good laughs about dad, his stubbornness and the fact that he's a demanding and obtuse pain in the ass. 

While Mr. Shah's shared information isn't revolutionary, it's concise and manages to explain the burden along with the emotional, psychological and relational cost and incurred damage associated with caring for elderly parents in decline. Interested to see if he has any ideas to dig one's life out of the hole that is long-term caregiving for elderly parents on the decline.