The Blogosphere

 Wanna know something interesting?  Everything I've ever posted online is contained in various blogger books (I guess that's the word).  Five books - some drafted but never published and some real master pieces from before it became evident I struggled with mental illness.  These blogs go back as far as 2008.  I was inspired to start writing after watching "About Schmidt" staring Jack Nicholson before deciding he was a jerk....  He wrote to Ndugu.  I wrote to Ndugu....  I had another blog called - The tangled web I weave.  I had another one I wrote while I was in therapy.  There was a guy that wrote the Fake Steve Jobs blog that I loved.  I tried to mimic the idea by attempting to write as Lance Armstrong after he fell from grace and was exposed for doping in his high flying cycling career which led to his destruction and the destruction of the lance Armstrong foundation.  I never found the write voice for Lance.

The "best" blog I wrote was A Day in the Life of Jesus in which Fake Steve Jobs was a 'mentor' of sorts.  If he could do it, I could too.  I decided to write from the perspective of Jesus as a contemporary figure living among us mortals in modern times.  I loved it and don't think I will ever be able to write like that again.  I was flying high manic when I wrote as Jesus.  Everything I wrote felt like I was living it in real time as I wrote it.  This was back in the day when I thought I could literally fly and realized I couldn't fly but I was sick.  Writing like Jesus was an amazing time in my life - due to being in the moment as I wrote it - I felt what I wrote in my heart and soul.  It was an amazing time and was a time I think I did my best work.  It's also when I realized how thin the line was between brilliance and insanity.....  A good time as a writer.  

As A Day in the Life of Jesus got off the ground, I had other people that wrote along with me.  I was Jesus.  I had two friends who were part of the production.  One of them wrote from the perspective of the Pope, being Jesus's business partner, and the other wrote from the perspective of Satan.  One of the funniest things was Jesus and Satan were best friends and often hung out together - much the same way I see political adversaries as being friends behind closed doors.  The thing about Jesus and Satan and the blog is while they are diabolical enemies they are one in the same playing off each other.  Two masterpieces carved from the same piece of wood.  Similar to the way I see democrats and republicans.  Publicly they're adversaries but behind closed doors they're members of the same club with the same agenda.

Ultimately, I'd like to go through and edit all the A Day in the Life of Jesus post and have each entry published as a keepsake book as a moment of all the fun that was had.  Maybe three copies.  One for me, one for the pope and one for Satan.  The pope and I still keep in contact but satan and haven't stayed in touch....

I've been told by friends that I can be a good writer.  Here's the thing - it can be the easiest thing in the world to do when inspired and when not inspired to write it's like pulling teeth and it doesn't come together the same way when the inspiration isn't there.  But man, when the inspiration is there, writing is exhilarating.  Stringing words together to convey an idea or situation is very rewarding.  Especially when I figure out a way to pace the experience with word choices, details, sentence structure, thoughts, descriptions, actions..  Bringing the reader along for the ride can be so rewording.  

I remember when Covid started, I was teaching my youngest to ride a bike.  For whatever reason the Covid chapter of my work was only published to Facebook.  I wish I knew how to search my own wall to copy that material off Facebook and put in a blogger book for posterity's sake...  I wonder if it's still there.  Can someone tell me how to search my own wall?  Let me know in the comments.