My brain and my heart

 I hate my brain. I was talking to someone yesterday and could remember what the opposite of dedicated was. This morning it hit me - more than 12 hours later - cross utilized.  This is a tragedy.  Is it age?  Is my brain failing?  Is my brain burned out from drugs used to manage other health issues?  Dopamine receptors fried?  I dunno.

I woke up early this morning and wanted to listen to Garth Brooks.  But ended up listening to George Strait.  Like someone had a different idea.  Garth wasn't meant to be today.  George was.  Divine intervention?  Perhaps.  Coincidence?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  King George - sings some of the best love songs - one of them particularly struck me with a line "you can lead a heart to love but you can't make it fall."  The heart has a mind of it's own which makes one wonder how can such a lovely lady be in love with such a jerk or how can such a nice guy be in love with such a bitch?  I'm flawed.  My wife is flawed.  Somewhere along the line we stopped trying to change each other and accepted the other flaws and all.  By the grace of God we've been together for nearly 27 years.  Neither one of us gave up on the other.  There were times when it would have been easier for either one of us to call it quits.  Neither of us did.  I guess that's the magic of marriage - the commitment made to one another in the eyes of God, family and friends.  A public proclamation that we love each other and won't give up or quit on one another.  There are times when I wanted to quit and times my wife probably wanted to quit, too.  Yet here we are having been through the ups, the downs, the trials and tribulations.  It's quite amazing, actually.

From first Corinthians: "Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails."  I caveat the last line with the word true.  True Love Never Fails.

Listening to King George often gets me thinking about relationships and my relationship with my wife.  He sings about love and human connection.  Between men and women.  The way God intended.  A wonderful artist.

Random thoughts - today is Easter.  My wife went to the grocery store and while she was there she bought a cake shaped like a bunny.  At one point in my life I would have thought that was stupid and a waste of money.  Now it delights me.  She saw something cute and fun and brought it home as part of our celebration of sorts.  It goes back to how women "plus" the world around them - make the world a brighter place.  Give a woman a house and she makes a home.  Give a woman food and she makes a a meal.  Give a woman a man and she makes a child - then she makes a family.  The entire premise of the word woman comes from the word womb - where a woman pluses the world by growing another person in her body and loving that other person the way only a woman can once it leaves her body and leaves her world and enters our world.  That new person is forever part of the mom.  The mom is always part of the child.  Every person on this planet came from a woman.  And only a woman can bring another person into this world.  That's amazing.  Plus. One.  Or more.

Maybe the world would be a better place if more people sat and actually listened to and thought about the truths in George Strait's music.  

Happy Easter to you and Yours.  Today is what makes christianity possible.  The resurrection of our lord and savior.  Maybe it's the biggest lie ever told.  Maybe it's not.  That's for you to decide.