You should do it

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 Tonight my wife and I were talking and she suggested I bite the bullet and go see a real John Williams concert with him conducting.  There are two of them scheduled.  Both in February.  One in Philadelphia and one at Carnegie Hall.  Tickets are expensive.  She kept trying to talk me into it stating he's getting old and his days are numbered...  His music means so much to you...  etc...  I started looking at tickets and while I could do a once in a lifetime splurge to see John Williams, I don't think I am emotionally equipped for an experience of that magnitude.  I looked at the tickets.  I thought about it and I just said I don't think I can do that.   Just thinking about being in a concert hall as he takes the podium and I get all choked up emotionally - the tears start welling up.  My voice cracks as we talk a little more about it.  No, I don't think I could process the experience.  I think I'd just start crying from being completely overwhelmed and not having the capacity to keep it together.  I don't want to experience that.  It would take days to return to a normal state after a complete short circuit.  My brain would be fried and it would take some time to regain my emotional and mental set point.  Am I depriving myself of a once in a lifetime opportunity?  No.  I'm protecting myself.  Just because you can do something doesn't mean you should.  


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